I don’t like sex!

I really don’t. I could stay two years without having sex and I won’t flinch. Weird, I know. I have tried to like it but I honestly can’t. I have been married for four years and I can honestly count the amount of times I have had sex with my husband. He is amazing in bed, don’t get me wrong but I just can’t get myself to actually enjoy having sex. Part of me would think it is maybe because my virginity was taken as a result of rape(story for another day which I haven’t even told anybody about it). Because it was my fault. What was a 16 years old girl doing meeting up a man on the internet at his house. I brought the rape on myself so I couldn’t tell a soul about it. Or maybe I do not like sex because I am circumcised? I really don’t know why but sex ekks me. My husband always jokingly say that I am “romantically dead”. I should be able to please my man in bed but I always run away from having sex. And no sex isn’t painful at all to me