So I did a post about a month ago about my beautiful Olivia hope that had to have open heart surgery and went into to cardiac arrest and at the time off the update she was doing really well..

However we found out Olivia had severe brain damage which effected everything she was blind deaf wouldn’t be able to swallow or talk or walk..

I was devastated as a parent you go into these operations hoping and praying that your baby girl will be fine..

They gave us a choice whether we wanted to stay there or go to a hospice where they would take Olivia off her life support and let her decide what happens next

Me and my OH couldn’t bare her to be in pain every time we held her she would cry but no sound would come out of her mouth she was distressed and unhappy.. 😞😞😞

We had decided to take her to the hospice where I got to take her out in her pram and do moulds of her hands and feet and the one thing I wanted to do was take her swimming..

I got to be a mummy again where the last two months I hadn’t because I couldn’t look after her..

24th of March I decided to take my beautiful Olivia swimming because she loved the water..

That evening her breathing went down hill and I held her and held her untill I give her to her nanny to have a cuddle and that was when my beautiful baby girl had enough and she passed away in her nans arms she waited so I could do everything that I wanted to do with her and she choose in that time enough was enough😭😭😭

Any mother would want to take there suffering away from there baby girl and I did I would rather suffer then she did..

I had a amazing 7 months with my beautiful girl and I’m heart broken

But heaven gained a angel on the 24th of March 2018 👼🏼💕

Olivia hope Weddell you was mummy’s apple of her eye and I love you now and forever