Rubbing Alcohol down my Vagina

When I was a teenager no one talked to me about cycles. At the age of 12 I had my first cycle experience NOT KNOWING WHAT WAS ACTUALLY HAPPENING! I thought my vagina was broken and no I wasn’t sexually attractive. So you know what I did, I poured alcohol down my vagina! 🔥🔥🔥😓 I’m currently 24, have irregular cycles, and have tried to get pregnant but have not been successful. I just want to know can it be possible that I messed myself up by pouring alcohol down there???

Kids are my passion but I’m so ready to give up on the thought of maybe I can get pregnant one day! 😭