Last month I had a misscarrige at 5 weeks , I pulled myself together even though it still hurts and now we are trying again since then an old school friend announced she was pregnant with her second and we were both pregnant at the same time with our first , that broke my

Heart I couldn’t help but feel angry at her even though it’s not her fault that I lost mine I feel terrible for the thoughts I was having so I pulled myself together again and said it will happen to me when the time is right and today I find out my brother in laws partner is now expecting to, even though there relationship is in no way stable to bring another bundle in to the world now I’m just sat here crying my eyes out why does this have to happen to me I actually want this I’m actually ready to bring another baby in to our family emotionally and financially. It’s just not fair I want this so bad 😞😞😞