hemorrhoids

TMI: I have such bad hemorrhoids now it literally feels like a knife is coming out of me when I poop. I have to drink stool softener and take laxatives every day so that it is soft but sometimes I forget and then it hurts so bad I’m crying and there is blood coming out of me when I poop. Help!? What do I do? It’s almost 8 weeks postpartum. I thought it would get better but it’s just gotten worse.