Devastated again.

AF is due tomorrow. I know she will be here on time. I’ve been spotting today and it’s getting to be more and more.

I’m devastated, but I’m not surprised. We haven’t even gotten the bill from the first IUI and I still have the rash from the trigger shot I gave myself on Easter. 😥

Some people make getting pregnant look so easy. I’m jealous because this is so emotionally exhausting. I’m so weak emotionally. I have nothing left to give. I’ve been trying so hard for so long. Every month I just fall apart when I know I’m officially out. How do I stop myself from feeling such disappointment and guilt?