Today marks two years that I lost my first baby. I now have my healthy, wonderful rainbow baby; but there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about that sweet baby that I lost. Some days it just comes crashing down on me out of no where and it feels like it just happened. It’s such a strange type of grief to try and deal with. It’s for someone you never met. I have no belongings to hold onto, I don’t even have an ultrasound picture since it happened one week before my 12 week appointment. But maybe someday it will be a little easier.