I don’t know why I’m even writing this post. I guess I just need to let it out.

I had a Mc the 22nd of March. My due date was 16th of November. My colleague closest to me is due in August. We are teachers, so our students won’t stop talking about her pregnancy. My two best friends are due the 15th of September and the 16th of October.

So everything was perfect, we would deliver almost at the same time and be on maternity leave at the same time. Plus out kids would be the same age.

Now that I miscarried, I just can’t be around them. It’s too hard. Everyone close to me is pregnant and it is deviating to see them grow and thank about everything I’m not going to get now :(

It’s hard for my fiancé to understand, but I guess that’s normal.... I just want this feeling to go away, so that I can be happy for them and not wanting to cancel every coffee-date I have with them 😞