anyone else hate sex???

hubby and I hsve been together for over 8 years, married for 5.5. we have an almost 3 yr old and a 16 month old. sex has been pretty miserable since around the time I got preggo with my first. its like a chore. even if I enjoy it,next time its the same where I would literally rather do anything else. we hsve lived with other people for a lot of our marriage and I know that was a big part of it (I am very private about sex, snd have lots of issues from being sexually abused as a child) but we have been livijg on our own for a while, and it still is just miserable. we literally had sex the other night for the first time in 5 weeks. 😒😒 but the biggest problem is I get,no enjoyment. hubby hates/is bad at foreplay, and sex lasts a couple of minutes if were lucky. he had teouble keeping an erection if we try to switch positions too many times or he fifhts to try to hold out from cumming anf I am at my wits end. we used to have a great sex life,before we got married and even a while afyer we got married. we both have gained a substantial amount of weight which I'm sure contributes too... but I just wish I liked sex like normal people, I could probably go the rest of my life without, no issues. I don't even masturbate that much anymore... it causes serious issues in our relationship.. I'm to the point I just let him use me when he wants, no intentions of it feeling good just do his business and be done as quick as possible and I hate that.... just miss the passion, and the endurance, and the love of it... and he won't see a dr or anything for his issues and its frustrating when I DO start to enjoy sex but know I wont orgasm from it, and he would feel bad if I masterbated after.. ugh I guess this is just more venting but Idk what to do anymore... every time I try to bring it up he gets all butt hurt.