My hunny...new update

My first post and it’s not even a happy one 😔. We had our 20 week appointment last week. I’m 21 weeks now. Sunday I came home and my sweetheart was gone.. I tried calling/texting him for 2 hours after I woke up Sunday. His 4 year old answered his phone finally at 1:30 pm and said daddy was sleeping and he can’t hear you. I FaceTimed her the whole way home. When I finally got in he had the deadbolt locked. I couldn’t get it open, it was one of those hotel swing door locks. I told her through the door that I would get in. We live on the 2nd floor of an apartment. We don’t lock the sliding patio door so I went that way. All I could think about was getting in to make sure they both were ok. I stood on the rail of my neighbors underneath and grabbed my patio rails above me. Put one foot in a small opening (it was a metal pipe looked like a water line that was attached to my patio ) and pulled myself up and over the rail. Well to my dismay , the sliding door was locked . I pounded on the door and then called Alyssa again on the phone and told her to come to that door. I coached her into pushing up the lock (it’s difficult for a grown up let alone a 4 year old little girl) she finally got it and I grabbed her and hugged her and checked her, she was fine. I ran to my fiancé that looked like he was asleep on the floor as he does sometimes and I heard gurgling noises trying to wake him and called 911. I couldn’t tell if he was breathing. She said to try and roll him over . At that point I knew he was gone and told her he was cold and purple and he’s dead he’s dead... I grabbed his daughter and went in the corridor to wait for help. They came out shortly after and said he was beyond help. He had been gone for several hours. I miss him and feel so lost. The past few days have been awful. My sister and family have been so amazing, I wouldn’t have gotten through without them .. I have a long hard road ahead of me but our son will be here in 4 months and I know he will be with us along the battle. I just want him to wake up and kiss my belly again and talk to Zander like he did everyday.

Update :

If anyone can help, passing it along is just as great as donating, a friend set up a go fund me for us 😢🙏 https://www.gofundme.com/nichole-and-violet-need-your-help