Gender Disappointment

I know this is going to be controversial. Yet, I. Just found out today that I am having boy #2. Yes, my last child. Will never get to experience what having a girl is like. I cried my eyes out all day, but feel so guilty. The baby is perfect, yet I can help it but feel very disappointed. I will never get to experience what having a girl is, buy cute clothes, be the mother of the bride, or seeing my daughter become a mother. All of these things are truly a stab in the heart. Please help me shake it off, I am sad, upset and lost all excitement with this pregnancy. I know I will love him to the moon and back once he's here but I think I will never be able to fill that void I am feeling now.