Things are just so up and down in my life right now. It’s been really hard to stay positive. I have absolutely no one to talk to which sucks, it’s nice to come on here and vent every now and then. My child’s father won’t speak to me and bashed me multiple times a day ago because i told him i don’t like the name “londyn” for our daughter. At first i kind of did but now it just doesn’t sit with me. I want to pick the name i originally had picked out which was Ava. Anyways it hurts to know someone i wasted almost 3 years with and isolated myself to be with him and went through a lot of drama and heartache for nothing. He cheated on me so many times while i was pregnant i know he doesn’t care about me at all or care about my well being or the fact that I’m carrying our second child. Sometimes i feel so alone i wish i could talk to him but then i think about all the times i did try to ever talk to him he doesn’t care or says really mean/rude nasty things to me... i wish me and my daughter had our own place with privacy because I’m staying with a family member and I’m not sure how I’ll be able to handle a newborn and my toddler alone in a crowded space. I feel so low and depressed it doesn’t make any sense. I start my prescription for Zoloft when i go to pick it up which will be soon, I’m praying after a month it has some kind of positive effect on me and I’m really hoping i can find an income based apartment for me and my babies. I started receiving child support which has helped a lot since I’m not working. My child’s father is an asshole and tired to claim me on his taxes as a dependent which blocked his taxes and delayed mines so I’m still waiting on my 4K to buy my car which i was supposed to already have and I’ll be having this baby in May which is literally right around the corner. It’s hard getting to appts and getting things done because i really have little to no help. I’m just so fed up... I’m just hoping and praying for better days because this depression is eating away at me day by day... ☹️ i feel so alone