Our surprise left at 15weeks +2 on the 1.4.18. But have been in and out of hospital with complications before during and after up until now. I am struggling more and more every day, why did this happen to us??! Is it just being unlucky? And why does everyone around you have no problems? The “perfect” life and family. I can’t stand to see it, does that make me a bad person? There seems to be bumps and babies everywhere I turn if I can even step foot out of the door, which I can’t do, other than not physically being able to due to having to rest, I can’t picture life anymore without having a baby. This should of been our first 💔 How do people manage all these emotions and physical and mental pain? I don’t stop crying, I don’t sleep, I picture what I should be buying, looking like by now, how happy I should of been and I feel like life isn’t worth living anymore. Only thing is having a baby ❣️ I want to fall straight away how likely is this? Will we be “lucky” I just need help 💔