This is going to sound insane but I just need to express my feelings somewhere.

For the past few years, I’ve struggled with severe depression and anxiety. I’m only 17 so my doctors were reluctant to put me on medicine all this time. Depression and anxiety both run in my family. My parents, grandparents, and great grandparents all have/had it so it was expected for me to have it.

Just short of a month ago, I was put on Prozac after weeks of nonstop panic attacks and very bad thoughts. The medicine has made me incredibly happy and that’s great, but somethings missing.

The best way I can explain this... I miss being sad. I was sitting on my bed thinking and just kind of realized it’s been a long time since I’ve cried. Being happy all of the time has been kind of frustrating.

I know how crazy this all must sound but it kind of feels like a part of me is missing. I guess I’ve gone so many years being used to worrying all the time or being sad all the time that I’m just not used to pure happiness and it’s weird.

I know it takes some adjusting when you start a new medicine but I just feel kind of lost. For all this time I’ve identified myself with someone that’s depressed/ anxiety filled all the time. Now I have none of that and everything is changing.

I just feel like part of me is missing. That’s the easiest way of explaining things. Any advice for things?