Self conscious about my body

I really hate my body (as in boob to hip area) and it looks really horrible because I’m not the nice kind of skinny but I’m not curvy at all either.

I hate the way my chest is and i don’t know if iI should be skinnier or what. I want to be proud of my body but I’m just not so I really want to change it but idk how.

I’ve been trying to gain more weight so that maybe I’ll get more curves but I don’t have a nice body because of my chest and I’m still really bony in some places.

I’m 14 so I only have small boobs and I’m wondering if that is why my chest (as in my actual chest not my bust) looks so big. I know I shouldn’t expect to look really hot at my age but loads of people in my year do.

Sorry if this is weird I literally just really need advice.