Honestly, I don’t know what I need right now.

According to my <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">glow app</a> I’m about 7 weeks pregnant now and I’m stressseddd the f out.

I was a naughty girl and had sex with 2 different guys 3 days apart. Both on ovulation week so I don’t know who the father is. I know there is such thing as prenatal paternity test but I have to wait till 9 weeks.

I’m stressing out as this would be the second time I go through this. My first born is 3 years old now and the guys were my boyfriend of 4 years and a random guy (sexual assault). The random guy ended up being the biological father and is no where to be found now.

Now i have to go through the prenatal testing again. One person being the guy I really like and the other someone I don’t want anything to do with and doesn’t want anything to do with my child.

I find myself obsessing and stressing, looking at ovulation charts to see when I could have possibly ovulated. I know I just need to calm down and wait. But if I don’t get the results I want this time around it’s gonna break my heart AGAIN. I know I will get through it AGAIN. But it’s tough to do this on my own again with a 3 year old.

BFP!

Guy A was on March 16th. Guy B on March 19th.

*fingers crossed for Guy B*

UPDATE:

Test results came back, I did it with Guy B and it turns out I’m living my nightmare all over again. Guy B is excluded... I’m heartbroken but honestly I feel numb. On the bright side. I’m having another girl, which is what I wanted. ♡

I told them both Guy A is saying it’s impossible and Guy B is asking if he can see me and if I’m ok. Clearly they are two different types of people. It’s obvious why I was hoping for Guy B.

Thank you for all the support, I know I’m a strong girl and I’ll get through it, it’s just extremely hard for me.