Had an unexpected emergency C ser to deliver baby at 38Weeks - weight is 2.54 kg at birth vs predicted 2.9kg .

3rd night now - my milk has not come in & only few drops of colustrum which baby is not happy with - sucking issues . And BF position issues for me (large (.)(.) & small baby as the Nurses call it ) .

Hubby doing a great job supporting me yet am unable to feel & enjoy the baby's arrival - or motherhood for that matter - unable to bond with him physically bcoz my C ser hurts badly inspite of painkillers & so I can't even lift him - need Nurses / hubby to help me to give him to me .

On the whole am devastated