its been 8 months being married almost 4 years together. Hes the type who cant spoon from behind but instead wants vice versa. Within this past 8 mo I have had to convince him to just hold me from the back just even for a few minutes...Not just this no sex for 3 mo... No morning cuddles. I feel like nothing next to him😕💔. I just want some lovimg my way and he makes it sound like im asking for too much. Currently i am juggling 3 jobs... hes not even working at the time (Has been soending a month finishing an online course i paid for his sake)when i get angry with him... He tells me im no woman that emotionally im dragging him down. Or if we'll be sitting around he'll stare at me and tell me "we" have to gym. Yesterday he looked at my arms and said "honestly i think all your fat is going to your arms" yes both of us have gained weight / but im reying slowly to lose it.

Now on my day off after so long a day after his Bday ( mind you hes been getting a bday month) Asks me to fucking spoon him and then asked me to make bfast after he woke me up(not with cuddles just acting like a child) and went back to sleep. I tried stupidly holding him from behind and he just snored off. I feel pretty empty and stupid. All i want is some affection myself since i havent had any intamicy for 3 mo- All i ever do is cry... all he ever tells me is im no good.

I feel like im crazy !? Am I?