Just me

hello... my name is Shanna. I am 33 yrs old. I suffer from pcos, I have went through Hpv and precancerous cells on my uterus. The Dr has gave me the all clear and said I should be able to conceive but it has yet to happen for me. I am overweight and the pcos doesn't help that, but then again neither does stress and depression.. I eat good drink tons of water and work out, but I'm not losing anything...

I have met the man I wanna marry and spend my life with even though we have had a rocky start, but we have moved passed that and we are moving forward. He has some beautiful girls and I am more then willing to be a step mom to them. but there is a huge part of me that wants my own. Is that wrong.

I am just lost and dont know what I can do to move forward and past this. Am I not ment to have my own family? am I only ment to love others Kids. Just full of mixed emotions, anxiety, depression, ect. I just dont know?