there's this guy i like. i find him attractive. he's kind, he's sweet, he appreciates me ( as a friend only lolol ) and,...well, to put it frankly, i masturbate thinking about him. and it's so weird because i started masturbating like mid december 2017 and exploring my body and all that and he came in january to our school and now he's always creeping up in my mind and i always suppress my feelings for him but it gets stronger and i want to masturbate more because of him and i stopped suppressing bc my friend said it'll only make it worse ( thinking about him part, i didn't tell her i was masturbating thinking about him lol ) and i just idk what to do. he's so perfect and everything and it's his nature and character, so ik im not special or anything. but idk what to do it's happening more frequently now and im like what. i even cried twice after masturbating and orgasming to thoughts of him and to be frank, idek why ! what do i do ? any help will be greatly appreciated

i can't date him because of my culture and religion and parents //: