I miss you

You came to me in a dream last night. It felt so real. We talked again and life felt right. Nothing else mattered. It was the way it is supposed to be.

I remember having a dream the day before we started talking one on one for the first time. It was me being held by a man, in a bathtub, he was just caressing me. It was so unbelievably intimate.

And the next day you talked to me... it was an instant connect. Kindred spirits. Soul mates. God, i love you. But fear of the unknown got in the way. The backlash and the insecurity that came along with being with you. I just couldn’t handle it at the time. Im not sure if i ever could.

But its been 3 years. I still feel the same. I wish we could be friends but as you said “we cant just be friends, can we?” No. We cannot.

Maybe there will be a day when we can be together. Maybe in the next life, even. Until then, i hope you continue to come to me in my dreams. I hope i come to you in yours... and we can be together there.