Outsiders view on this

Me and my husband have been together for 15 years. Used to adore each other, have sex all the time. We were best friends, and as close as you could want to be with another human.

Back in 2013 he was promoted at his job, worked crazy long hours, worked on his day off, they just wanted him there all the time. We started to grow apart. It hurt. He would work long hours and then come home tired and stressed out, he would only talk about his job and text with his co workers when he was at home.

It got to where I started to feel neglected, all the things that we enjoyed doing together stopped, we stopped spending quality time together. My days were spent taking care of the house, taking care of the kids and their crazy schedules, cooking, waiting for him to come home in a bad mood.

I begged for his time, his affection, I begged for sex! I would tell him how I felt, I tried to be patient and understanding that he was doing it for me, for the family but he never changed.

Last year we separated for a few months to figure out if our family and marriage is what we still wanted. We agreed to see other people during that time. After 4 months we got back together, I love this man with all my heart bc of the memories and life we’ve had, but I am not in love with him anymore. I don’t feel anything when he touches me or when he kisses me or when we have sex. But when I think about leaving him I feel so sad and my heart breaks a little. So pretty much I can’t imagine life without him but that spark is out.

He changed jobs late last year and he is so much happier but his long hours are still there. I still have to remind him that I am there, that I need sex, that I need kisses, that I need to feel human touch!

Does it seem like he is with me just so he is not alone? What would you do. I feel like I need to leave him and eventually find a new man to love me like I want. I’m ridiculous, I know.

Also, I bring money into the home too so I am not ungrateful for his hard work and financial contribution