Not their fault, but a kick to the gut gut for me

So, my boyfriend(24) and I (21) have been TTC for 6 months. (Currently in my TWW fingers crossed!) we went to Disney last week, and I so badly wanted to be pregnant and announce while there. Spoiler alert, it didn’t happen. 😭 We already have names picked out, and have for the last couple of years. They are very set in stone.

Anyway, we invited my boyfriends family along with us for his 7 year old sisters birthday.

Only a couple of weeks before we leave, my boyfriends dad and step mom announce that they are pregnant. Kick to the gut 1 & 2. I am only 21, and cannot fall pregnant easily due to PCOS. But yet, his 40 year old step mom can 😭 and for Disney!! It was all just so ironic and seemed like the universe was laughing in my face. I am SO happy for them. A baby a a blessing and would never wish bad things on any of them. My boyfriend is also happy to have another sibling, it’s just a matter of how these events are all lining up.

THEN, the icing on the freaking cake... while lounging in the pool in Florida, they tell us that it’s a girl, and that they like a name...

the name is the SAME NAME that we have picked out for our girl! Like wtf?!?! Can this get any more weird?! It’s not a common name either. Ugh!! I’ve had a Pinterest board for my babies for years. I have had a vivid picture of my future children, and have a sister in law named what our baby would have been named.... just ugh!! Obviously not their fault. They don’t know any of this. But really??? How does all of this happen like this?