So I had my first miscarriage September 2017 at 6 weeks and it was very light. Felt like I was on my period. Took me awhile to accept but me and my fiancé tried again right away because doctor cleared it and we finally got our BFP 3/6/18. My pregnancy symptoms were so much stronger this time. My lines were nice and dark and everything seemed so fine... went to my first appt and got an ultrasound since my OB wanted to be careful because of my prior miscarriage and everything looked good baby measured 6 weeks and couldn’t hear a heartbeat but saw it flickering! Made my heart so happy! I just thought wow it’s really my turn to be a mommy! And my next appt to follow up with an exam, ultrasound and blood work didn’t go so well.. it was a month later and baby was still measuring at 6 weeks but this time no heartbeat was seen or heard 😞 confirmed miscarriage with dropping hcg levels and then a few days later I started cramping and bleeding horribly. To where I had to have my mom drive me to the ER at 4 am and I don’t even live with her anymore 😅 it was awful. And to this day I’m still cramping and bleeding and I just wonder when exactly did I start miscarrying? Did I start miscarrying after my first appt? Why was this miscarriage so horrible this time around as opposed to last time when I was just as far along..? Will I ever be able to have a baby? Miscarriages just suck so bad... and now both of my babies are playing together in heaven. 😕❤️👼🏼👼🏼