I Just Need a Friend

Jasmine

Last week I took a trip to the gyno because i had excruciating pain during sex with my boyfriend of 7 months. I went expecting it to be a yeast infection or some other bacterial infection because there was some itching a couple days earlier during my period. I just got a call from my gyno saying that the only thing I tested positive for was herpes. I had only slept with 5 people before my boyfriend and used protection every time, and my boyfriend was a virgin when we met, he had only ever kissed a girl. my gyno refused to answer my questions over the phone and just told me not to worry and I can come in tomorrow to have my questions answered. She also told me not to tell my boyfriend yet. I have a theory that the canker sores my boyfriend gets are actually cold sores and thats how I got it. It is just weird because I have never had symptoms before and i have never had a cold sore and I am still very confused and i just feel lost. Its like now I have this thing that is never going away and it just makes me feel gross and like I did something wrong. I know that 5 might seem like alot of guys to some people and I know my mother will have something to say but I genuinely liked them and did not think it was going to be a problem. I dont see a problem with people sleeping with lots of people as long as they are safe and I always was. Im just feeling a bit down and was hoping there was some people on here who maybe have wise words or advice. How do i tell my boyfriend or my parents without them thinking I am gross or unsafe I just dont know I feel like im so restricted now like what if I gave it to my boyfriend? Im just very upset. Please I just need to talk to anyone.