let’s be honest

i had miscarriage first of the month and it was hard emotionally & physically for me I was in the er for losing so much blood needing a blood transfusion. Long story short we have two boys 18months apart almost 5&4 took while to decided if another was wanted and it was but the missed miscarriage happened so fast that we are now unsure if we want to ttc again bc not only did this happened to me

But my two sweet boys who saw me how they never should have . Part of me wants to

Try again but then I feel selfish . Have any of you felt this way after a miscarriage I don’t even

Know if this makes sense . tia 💓 here’s a pic of me and boys