Im an idiot

edit:good news guys! i'm not pregnant! bad news is.. the asshole gave me chlamydia so yay me 😭😭😭

I had sex with my first love... we started dating 5 years ago when I was 15, he cheated 7 months later and I eventually forgave him and since then we've been on and off a few times 🙄😒 well..we had never went all the way before but one drunken night after me and my boyfriend broke up I invited him over and one thing led to another ... at the moment it seemed perfect..candle was lit, mood was perfect, we were completely intimate. yet as soon as we were done I felt regret fill my body.. I should have known 😏 the second his ex hinted that she wanted to get back with him he completely ghosted me. now im just here feeling like a complete whore.

and just to add the icing on the cake, I have a horrible feeling that I might be pregnant. could be his, could be my ex boyfriends. what is life man...