Terrified

I lost my first son at 24 weeks and 5 days due to the hospital not controlling my blood pressure (his autopsy confirmed bp was cause) and I’m currently pregnant!

I’m terrified I’ll lose my rainbow baby I’m only around 6 weeks and already had 2 u/s. First only saw my uterus thickening and second just saw the sac, I’ve got another one in 6 days. The hospital want to start me on 150mg if aspirin as soon as they see the heartbeat and I’m also on my bp medication, I’m having my blood pressure monitored once a week up the hospital. I’m also having all my midwife appointments at the hospital and they’re breaking protocol and treating me in the maternity triage (they only see women 16 weeks plus) I already have a consultant appointment after my 13 week scan in June!

I’m just terrified I won’t get my rainbow! My blood pressure has been stable so far!