This may be TMI but I’m not sure

My SO and I decided he wanted to fully take a break from TTC. He’s a welder so jobs and turnarounds never last. Well when he says fully take a break it means to prevent it from happening. Well I wasn’t fully on the same page. He knows how badly I want a kid. He also wants one badly too. I told him I believed we shouldn’t try but we shouldn’t prevent either. He talked about me getting on BC and I am totally against it right now. Our situation always changes. He’s a welder and getting laid off is very common. But also big money turn around are very common too. He gets super frustrated when he gets laid off. So that’s when he doesn’t want it to happen. But anyways my reasoning for not getting on birth control is the fact it’ll take me up to 3 months to regulate my period when I get back off of it. And then we have to wait to try. Might sound silly but I just don’t wanna do it. Anyways here comes the TMI part. We were taking a shower yesterday( we had something to do quick in a hurry so we both jumped in to get it done and over with.) well I was like okay what the heck and gave him a blow job. Well he stopped me after a few minutes in and the we started having sex. Well needless to say we finished and he finished in me. And he said in the sweetest way. “How are we gonna have a baby if you keep swallowing them, they’re supposed go inside of you silly” before anyone comments about him being unsure all the time we are very sure we want a baby. He is very sure. Just when he gets laid off he doesn’t want it to happen. He’s more scared about not being able to take care of me financially. (Doctors appointments and all that) I have a job but it doesn’t pay me much. I just thought it was sweet of him yesterday to think of my wants first.

This is pretty much how my heart felt when he told me that ❤️❤️