Basically when my mum drinks alcohol she is like a completely different human being she turns so evil and abusive. Sometimes I have been chilling in my bedroom and she has been drinking down stairs and has came up the stairs in to my room and physically attacked me beating me and hitting me and trying to get me to hit her back but I never have I just sit there while she attacks me. She’s also said things like she wishes I was never born and that she wanted an abortion but when she went to get one it was too late. She’s told me that my dad isn’t my real dad because she slept around and told me my real dad probably wouldn’t want to know me anyway because I’m fat and disgusting and going to be a slut just like she is. She has also taken lit cigarettes and put them in to her skin and taken knives and cut her self and told me it’s my fault she’s so disgusted in me shed rather slit her wrists than have me as a daughter. When she sobers up in the morning she usually apologises sometimes she doesn’t even bother before after she beat me she apologised and I said I don’t forgive you and she just said fuck you get out my house then. She knows how she is when she drinks but continues to do it all the time. I’m 19 and I’ve never touched a drop of alcohol because im terrified I’d turn out like her when I drink. Also I have moved out from her house but she will turn up to my house drunk at like 3am and bang on my doors and windows and screaming things in the street like slut or screaming I’m a drug addict and false things like that and a lot of my neighbours complain and report me. Just thought I’d vent on here