No heartbeat

I had my first ultrasound today and there was no heartbeat. Baby was measuring on track at 8 weeks 2-3 days. No even a fluttering of a heartbeat. My heart hurts so much. I feel like a part of my world was taken away from me. I have another ultrasound scheduled tomorrow to confirm there is no heartbeat again (my request) before the D&C; scheduled on Monday as well.

I don’t even want to try again, right now. I wanted that baby. I miss my baby so much already.