Hopeful 🌈 (LONG POST)

Hopefully this will help someone 🙏🏾. Almost 2 years ago (September 2016) I lost my baby boy at 29 days of being in the NICU for brain damage and breathing complications. He never even made 1 month. We still never got an answer to what happened but they believed when I was carry him at one point he cut off his oxygen supply. It went unnoticed. At each appointment he had a strong heartbeat.

(The day he was born.)

I know this is the hardest thing any mother could go through like words can’t even explain the hurt! And to this day I still find myself wondering “What if ...”.

(The day my sweet baby went to heaven.)

On March 24th, baby boy #2 was born 2 weeks early but healthy with no complications!

I was terrified this whole pregnancy hoping he was healthy. He came out healthy and crying (with my first I never got to hear him cry).

April 24th, he made 1 month.

The rainbow baby will never replace or makeup for a lost but it definitely give hope. What we go through is not easy at all and stick with us forever. But I do believe God gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers. They both are in my life for a reason, I may not understand it yet but maybe one day I will. I really hope someone finds this helpful. Sorry it’s so long.

(Baby Boy #1: Wolf Alexander W.)

(Baby Boy #2: Grey Michael W.)