Just need some guidance

this past year has been the worst year of my life. It started last May when my husband's job/contract was cancelled. He went from making $20/hour to $12/hour to several weeks over the summer without work/pay until he started a new job in November. in July, my car was totaled. It was halfway paid off as I only had it not even 3 years. It was parked on the street in front of our house and a guy drugged out of his mind was driving 80mph and slammed into it. A few months went by and we decided to sell our house and look for a nicer house in the next town over. We got pre-approved and started our house hunt. in October, we went under contract on a house under the condition we sold our house. December, I found out I was pregnant with our first. We hadn't had anyone interested in our house. the sellers of the house we were buying were getting anxious. We learned our house payment would be almost double what we were currently paying (the mortgage lender was not up front about anything). We didn't extend the contract when it came time to and got out of it. We were out about $450 for inspections. no huge deal, but still sucked. January 2nd, I went into for my first ultrasound at 8 weeks and a few days. baby measured 6 weeks and no heartbeat. I had to wait a week for a 2nd ultrasound to confirm the worst. I had a d&c; the next day. A few weeks later, someone wanted to buy our house. We thought we'd find one in that month's time it took to close on our house. nope. one day after signing the contract to sell, we tried to back out. Our realtor was also working for the buyers. There was nothing we could do. later that month, someone hit my new car parked in front of the house again, but fled. In February, I went on strike for 11 days. We closed on our house February 28th. We paid the realtor more than what we got back on our house, which stung so badly because the realtor was the worst. she even tried to get more money out of us. We had a month to get out of the house and turn the keys over. around the end of March, I found out I was pregnant again. I had horrible cramping and bleeding (one time even bright red with clotting) but everything was fine and still is. We currently live at my mom's with her, her fiance, and my 95 year old grandfather who literally has days to live. He's under hospice care, hasn't eaten or drank anything in a week, and is being given morphine every 2 hours. I can't find it in me to get out of bed in the mornings. I've called off work the last 2 days. I feel so depressed. I'm not excited about this pregnancy like I once was and I feel terrible for that. I'm 10 weeks today, my birthday. all I want to do is sleep but I can't when I try. I have dreams about our old house and how much the new owners love it. I'm starting to resent my husband. I don't know if I have reason to or if I'm just trying to find anyone to blame. He never liked our old house. I bought it by myself when I was 23, he and I had only been together 2 years dating long distance. I just don't know what to do anymore. I used to pride myself for being so mature in handling whatever life threw at me, but all I want to do is curl up and cry my eyes out. I have no motivation like I did before.