Do you think it’s wrong to be religious but question what you believe?

So I was baptized catholic as a child and attended catholic school until I started going to hang out at a Christian youth group with a friend in middle school. I was baptized again as a Christian and have been ever since. I attend church with my husband and I try to live life with good intentions, making sure I’m good to people and trying to be positive. I just have been having a hard time keeping the faith that all my efforts towards being a Christian will end well for me I guess? I have a hard time praying. I guess when I think about praying sometimes I subconsciously think to myself “what for? I feel like it’s a bit of a wasted effort” and then I try to erase the thought from my head and move along. I feel horrible about it. I have also started to think more about other possibilities like reincarnation. My question is, do you think it’s wrong to try and follow the life of a certain religion while you’re having other thoughts cross your mind? Maybe I’m just screwed up 😫. I’m going through a lot mentally.