Losing my virginity 🤷🏽‍♀️

So im 15 and I’m at that age where you start thinking about losing your virginity and stuff right? My friends and I sometimes talk about it and they’re all grossed out by the thought of giving a BJ (I can see why but it’s not the grossest thing to me) and they’re super super scared of losing their virginity. I’m not shaming them or anything for being scared and not wanting it yet because there isn’t anything wrong with that but I, myself am not scared. I can’t wait to have sex for the first time with someone I’m really into. I masturbate at least 2 times a week so maybe that influences my thoughts. Like I’m not scared it’ll hurt and I’m not scared that I won’t be comfortable because I know that your first time is very rarely mind blowing. But my friends are and that means I have no one to talk to about this! I talk about masturbation with my guy friends because I know they won’t think it’s weird. (not every guy tho) I don’t know where I’m going with this. I guess all I’m saying is that it sucks being the “dirty” friend, the girl who isn’t very innocent. I know I’m young but please don’t shame me for wanting to have sex