ever regret something that was right

in no way do two wrongs ever make a right. that is known. but Let's back peddle here.

from 20 to 21 I was seeing a run of of the mill at the time f*ck buddy he was 33 turning 34 and I was 20 turning 21 we knew each other for a year prior to our experience and has a solid friendship foundation. his relationship crumbled and he turned to me for a advice when my relationship was falling apart and we ended up both admitting to wanting the other sexually. my boyfriend broke up with me and we started our free for all my senior year of business school. secret hookups and seeing each other when we had time. it was a monogamous relationship without actually going out on dates or always expecting the other to come around. by the end of my senior year we were frequently seeing one another to the point I really wanted to be with him.never but he never came across a wanting that. so I did what was best for me. which was move on and get someone who wanted to build a life. never told him about it until Christmas where I did t give him his Christmas nookie like promised. we ended with just being friends.

over the next couple years we stuck to that. he was always who I called for help or advice and he was the same way with me. we kept our friendship even after our weird relationship.

well yesterday I was in pieces because it seems my current relationship is done. my so called boyfriend hit me and broke my wrist because we were in a fight and i wanted to leave instead of have a screaming match. I finally yesterday broke down and told my friend what really happened. because my friend (well call mike). Mike wanted to message me because he was going to see if I was done playing house and wanted to come back to him. I ended up telling him all that happened and he called me and said. he was pissed why I needed the experience he let me get hurt and my broken wrist was all his fault. because he didn't do what he wanted which was turn our agreement into an actual relationship. so last night we ended up meeting up for the first time in years and had unprotected sex. basically I think I cheated and did wrong and am with the wrong person