Autism wrecking my social life

"The waves crash endlessly.

She's so numb to the waves that she can't even feel them.

She's so numb to the feeling of her feet sinking in the sand.

The sun shines brightly,

but she mistakes the Sun for the moon because it's not bright enough.

She doesn't understand why it matters that the sun is a sun and a moon is a moon.

She doesn't realize how to bask in the silence.

She doesn't realize the person next to her is gone now.

She doesn't realize that social cues will always be the reason why she's stuck at the beach, and not already swimming with the other fish."

Well, that's my poem on what it's like to be autistic and lose friends because I'm just too blunt. I do my best, but I feel like the people closest to me will always leave because I can't be like a normal person and understand that some things you shouldn't say but other things are okay to say. Now I've lost my best friend and I just needed to rant about it.

Does anyone have any tips on how to get through this and how to understand social cues? I'm always too blunt for my own good and I need advice on how to think before I say anything.