I found this... and he still won’t own up to it...

A little back story...

When I was out of town for my baby shower (I’m 7 months pregnant) my baby’s father (we’ll call him R) his ex showed up to our home that we just moved into and completely trashed it. She broke all of my frames with photos of my children in them and ripped canvases off the wall all because she found out I was pregnant and that I moved with him to their home town. I had just moved to another state for him and this was our new home. She text me and said she was still sleeping with him and that she’s fucked him on my children’s bed and in our room etc. oh and that she may be pregnant as well. (All while drunk she’s telling me this 😒🙄) obviously this caused a lot of trust issues with me and R and she has since apologized to me and asked if I’d be willing to watch the child they have together while she is working. Anyways to smooth things over I agreed and things are going okay between her and I. Me and R not so much! I had a hard time trusting him after this and a lot of other things factored into me finally saying I can’t be with someone I don’t trust.

Fast forward about 6 weeks since the above incident happened. Me and R are still not together, but we sleep in the same bed, we are having sex and agreed that we will work on things. Anyways, long story short he had to go out of town for work for just one night. He took a bag with him and all. Well when he gets back he asked me to wash some of his shirts before leaving for work. Well I went through his bag to see if there was anything else I could throw in and I find this

It’s the back of the wrapper to a male enhancement pill. He used to take them awhile back when we used to go out and drink and he wanted to get it hard. Plus a bottle of vodka. So of course I get upset start crying and thinking wtf. I’m pregnant and he’s out fucking someone while out of town. He finally gets home from work and I asked him about it. He initially flipped out and was like this tells me exactly what I need to know. You don’t trust me still blah blah blah. Anyway he said it’s better that we stay broken up because I’ll never trust him again. So I get my pillow and go to the baby’s room and lay down. Just over it and emotionally spent. He comes in 5 min later and says that he swears he didn’t use it and that there was no one else and swore on his kids that he couldn’t and wouldn’t jeopardize his life with me. Deep down I just don’t believe him. Too many things have happened in the last 2 months that I can’t ignore, and this is like a slap in the face. Idk what to do. I quit a job that paid me 55k a year to move here with him because he got a promotion that would double his earnings and pretty much make what I was making. I would get to stay home with our little girl and my boys. He pays all of our bills, pays for clothes and shoes for my children. Buys everything for his little girl that’s coming soon. And now this. I can’t go anywhere. I have no job and very little money. My boys just enrolled in this new school and they love it. My family is 800 miles away. I’m lost. He told me I can stay here and once I can start working again we can figure out what to do, but he told me not to stress anything in this moment because of our baby. I’m so confused. He told me the wrapper must of been really old and that I’m crazy for thinking he would do that to me. Now I’m sitting in the tub. Crying, upset and feeling like a complete idiot for quitting my only source of income. I can’t go back to the other place because I just don’t have enough money saved to make it 4 months. Any advice would be great right now.