Anybody Else?

This may be long, sorry in advance! My husband says I'm OCD because of my obsession with washing my hands, cleaning my counters and showers. I wash my hands about 60 times a day. If I'm cooking, even more. I'll wash my hands even after stirring the pot. As long as I'm in the kitchen, I'll be washing my hands. I'm the same way about my kitchen counters and dining table. I'll literally clean my counters about 20 times a day. I go through cleaning products like water. It doesn't have to be dirty or anything but I'll find a reason to clean it. Honestly, I do it when i'm stressed, happy, thinking or bored 😶. My dining table cannot be out of order, nothing goes on it other than a table cloth, placemats, candles, salt and pepper, napkins and a vase. If anything shifts out of place, I kinda have a mini meltdown and don't rest until the table cloth is even on all sides 😓.

Now for the shower issue, I'll take a shower in the morning and I'll be chilling all day, if I feel like i'm getting a little warm, I'll take another shower. I can't sit on my bed without showering. The baby has been sick, so he's cranky and miserable, not sleeping well. My husband hasn't been home since Thursday because he's doing alot ot overtime since he's taking vacation in a week. Our baby will only stay with me or him and since he's not here, I'm dealing with it all. His not sleeping means i'm struggling to get some me time to shower. When I see my usual bedtime roll around and I haven't taken my shower, I start itching, my head, arms, back, thighs are all scratched up because I can't stop scratching because I feel dirty. I was finally able to get a quick shower a few minutes ago, while baby took a nap. 😏 Last week we had a black out and I couldn't get any hot water, it was also freezing and I couldn't cuddle up under my blankets because I felt miserable.

My husband says he's glad he doesn't pay for water or we'd be broke and I feel bad that he even has to say that, even though I know he's just poking fun at me. I change my sheets and towels at the least, twice a week.. it's beginning to interrupt my life because on hubs days off, he'll try to hang out with me but i'm always in the kitchen or laundry room 😖. Do I need help? please tell me i'm not the only one? this has been going on way before the baby but it has been amplified since he's been born because now I gotta keep the entire house extra clean for him.