Feeling alone in my own home...anger issues

Idk what to do or think at the moment. I’ve been having horrible mood swings as I stopped taking Zoloft once I found out I was pregnant. I know it’s somewhat “safe” to take but I had a miscarriage a few years ago and I’m just terrified of putting meds in my body. My husband doesn’t understand my emotions I feel like he thinks I can just shut them off and it’s hard. I’m exhausted and nauseous and I just want help around the house. He had the nerve to ask me to help with yard work but he won’t do anything around the house. I will be almost sleeping And he he comes in the room wanting attention. Mind you we have been together 13 years and had our first son when we were 18. I keep thinking about all the dumb shit he did to me during that pregnancy which was awful I was a teen mom and felt so alone. Well now we live 2 hours from our hometown and all I have is his family around and he hasn’t even told them I’m expecting yet. I was half asleep last night and he jumps in bed and I got irritated and snapped he starts yelling for me to shut up so I elbowed him and he got pissed saying I’m so lucky I’m pregnant and I better just f&&& off for the next couple of days. I just need advice I feel alone and angry and disrespected. Ya I shouldn’t have elbowed him but idk what to do. I just want to enjoy this pregnancy and have a healthy baby, but stressing and being angry isn’t going to help me get there.