TMI just passed my angel

Ive just passed my baby out, and I have to be honest this is the most traumatizing experience of my life. This is my first pregnancy my baby died at 9 weeks, everyone told me I won't recognize it, it will just look like a blood clot, and it's okey to flush it down the toilet.
That's not what happened, I've had very little bleeding so far, when I passed my baby it was clear as day. I could see it's perfect little body, 
I couldn't flush it, my husband and I put it in a jewlery box and tearfully buried our baby in the flower bed, today is my 27th birthday, this will forever be burned in my memory