HELP ME: Relationship

I’m heading into 2.5 years of being in an extremely toxic relationship. 😞 I’m talking mentally and physically abusive relationship. I’m seriously so drained. I got to the point I wanted to kill myself and self inflicted pain onto myself just from what he put me through. 💀 I would make up excuses to why I couldn’t work more than 3 days a week or stay late. I made up excuses to not go see my parents. I made up excuses to not go to an actual college and now I’m stuck doing it all online.

I finally can say I found a guy I really like and respects me. Problem is, is that he lives in a different state (about 6 hours) and I’m stuck living with my current bf. Am I wrong for cheating? I feel like a horrible person but it’s not as bad as what he did to me..including the abuse he put me through. I’m not the type that cheats but I’m so lost. 😶