Out of recovery.

on April 2nd I found out I miscarried, not only was it devastating but it was also my 2nd wedding anniversary. I got so depressed afterwards and my anxiety seemed to just get worse. It was affecting me in ever aspect of life, home, self care, work, and sex life even. I just had no motivation to do anything and I wanted the pain to end. I started thinking of ways I could end it all, when the thoughts got to much to handle I went to the hospital 3hrs away for help. I was in the hospital for 11 days and had a big med change.

My husband and I have been ttc for 2 years and nothing. I am grateful that I have his support and that I got some help before I attempted. I am just getting use to being back home and work life, but I am terrified that I'm going to fail and that all of this was for nothing. But as long as I have my husband and my little Axle (pictured) things will continue to look up I pray.