Lamictal

I was diagnosed with bipolar II 4 years ago after being mis-diagnosed and incorrectly medicated for 5 years. I have been on Lamictal ever since. I've loved it. The initial side effects were terrible and if I'm even late on a dosage I get super sick, but the benefits were a good enough trade off until recently. I upped my dosage from 300 to 400 a couple months ago. I noticed the typical symptoms, mood swings being one of them (especially rage), and my mind feeling like it's in a blender and I can't slow it down. Usually that would go away after a week or two but this time it stayed. I feel like I have absolutely no control over my mind or my emotions. I'm angry all of the time. Even little things like not being able to find something in the fridge. When I'm on my period It's 10x worse. It's ruining my relationship. I think about killing myself everyday, I'm starting to hear a voice call out my name, my thoughts run without me having any control over whag im thinking. The anxiety leaves me paralyzed. I can't leave the house, be in the car, or listen to music without being completely on edge. I'm going to stop the meds as soon as I can get in to see my doctor so please no comments or suggestions about that. Don't worry, I already intend to fix the problem. I'm just wondering if anyone else went through this while on Lamictal? I'm praying it's just the medication and not be goibg crazy. I'm starting to get scared. I'm not myself and I can't seem to find myself. Please if anyone can help o would be forever grateful. And again, Ialready plan on stopping the med so, if thags your ONLY piece of advice, please don't leave the comment at all