can't help the negative thoughts.

Hey everyone.. I don't post a lot, but I just need to talk through my feelings. Some info about me, I'm 24, my husband is almost 38, and we have been ttc since January. He was born with low testosterone, so for his whole life, his T levels are 50-75% to another man of his age. Because of this, he relies on Viagra most of the time because his doctor says he's too young to start T replacement therapy still. So we have that working against us. I'm 7 dpo and 6 days til AF is due. We did the baby dance several times over my ovulation week, including the day before, and the day after my peak day. We had his 3 kids for my peak day so that threw a wrench in the BD for that day. (edit for clarity, only 1 of the girls is biologically his. The other 2 he stepped in for when they were babies) I've been cramping a little the last few days, and I just have this heavy feeling that it didn't happen this month either. And idk. I'm just sad I guess? And a little jealous, my ex best friend, who is a drug addict and not in any place to be a mother got pregnant literally 3 weeks after she came off birth control... And here I am, I have a good job as does my husband, we own our home. We have all the love in the world to give, and it isn't happening for us... I know we haven't been trying half as long as some of you, so I know it could be worse.. But it still sucks.... Thank you for anyone that read this, and baby dust to all you beautiful women ❤️