I can’t get over it...

It’s been a year.. since it’s happened...

My boyfriend totally destroyed my self esteem... we were at Disney... on the boat to get to the park.. he askes me if I could change anything what would it be? I said nothing of course bc at that time I loved everything about this man... and I asked back... his response was.. “ just for you to have a bigger ass” .... I said nothing... the date goes on and a girl walks pass w a noticeable big butt and he and I WERE holding hands... he dropped my hand and did a full 360 to look at her.... again I said nothing... as we continued to date and presided to move in together I noticed him checking out other girls butt.. not to mention that at our 1st place when touring and seeing the gym he taps on my butt and says good we can work on that now... I’ve since told him how it makes me feel and how it has destroyed me.. he hasn’t done it in awhile atleast not in front of me... but still to this day I am not comfortable in my skin anymore.. I’m so envious of other girls.. I break down abt it a lot... I hate hating my body.. doubting my beauty... I was never like this.. if anything I was a little too confident before... any advice?

Please be positive... I know leaving is an option... if been told and besides know...