Sad guilty horny girl

My boyfriend and I got in a fight the other day about me lying about a guy I slept with BEFORE we started dating. It was a bad idea to lie, but I was so scared he wouldn't have been interested if I told him, so I just didn't. No cheating at all. Just not telling the whole truth about the past. He went into a deep deep depression and ended up having to be hospitalized. We know it's some sort of mental illness but I feel so guilty. He feels bad for making me feel bad. He's in lots of emotional pain right now.

Before he went to the hospital, he said all he can think of is the other guy fucking me and how it hurts him to sleep in the same bed I had sex with this guy in, even though he (bf) slept in it every day after he found out. He said that he wants to wait a while before we have sex again. He's being so dramatic, saying that he loves me but it's painful to be with me and stuff. Blah. He's far from a virgin soooo...

I know he's sick in the head right now and I need to give him time to heal, but I feel like shit. I have had depression since I was a child and I was never like this.

I feel so gross knowing he doesn't want to have sex with me. He said he's completely lost his sex drive also. Obviously I'll wait for him to come around and not push him, but I'm afraid he'll never come around. I'm so scared the doctors will tell him to leave me after all the support and love I've given him.

Idk. Any thoughts or advice from anyone would be nice. Xoxox