I cheated..

(We’ve been together for 5 years now) Three years ago we were going through a really rough place,,we were borderline separated and didn’t know if we wanted to be together. We were arguing every other hour ( literally) and over everything! A friend contacted me during these rough times and I was hanging out at her house and another friend of theirs pursued me, knowing I had a boyfriend at the time as well, we became friends and it turned emotional as that wasn’t what I was getting from my boyfriend. I stopped talking to this person as soon as I saw he was wanting me to leave my boyfriend. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to leave or not. My boyfriend and I continued to work through our issues and eventually over came them. Though I have never told him, I assume he knows because he makes comments about me being the one who cheated, and just other comments that make me seem like he just knows.

We have since bought a house, had a baby, and we are planning to get married. But it’s just been weighing on me, as I want to tell him but things are just going good for us. But I hate holding on to this secret.

Thanks for listening to my venting, any advice would be great.

EDIT: it was just emotional, I wasn’t seeking anyone else until I felt wanted. And then once I realized it was going to far I cut it off!

And I’m not trying to justify my behavior! I know it was wrong.