TRIGGER WARNING⚠️

I feel terrible writing this as I know how many women struggle to conceive but here’s my story.

At 19 I had an accidentally pregnancy after missing a depo shot. I had a surgical abortion at 13 weeks( found out late)

I am a believer of God, I didn’t really want to have the abortion to be totally honest but my mum pretty much forced me by threatening to not speak to me again as I wasnt with the guy and was unemployed. It was a hard decision for me to make. I still wonder if God has forgiven me.

I’m now 21 and in the most amazing relationship of 1.5 years, I actually met him days before the abortion but didn’t tell him for a little while after and he was really supportive when I had my bad days ( still have days where I cry and feel guilty). There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think about what I did.

Anyway I got straight on the nexplanon implant after but had it out 7 months later due to constant heavy bleeding. I’m on my 3rd month ttc and still nothing. I’m scared God won’t give me another baby because of what I did 😔