Bummed Out

We found out yesterday that our second child is estimated at currently weighing 9lbs 13oz at 37 weeks. He’s been measuring ahead since 32 weeks, but I thought we had a chance at a vaginal delivery. My doctor said yesterday that she doesn’t see a way to deliver him safely without a csection (since no one is in medical distress, we can’t do an induction before 39 weeks. If he keeps growing at his current rate he will be estimated to be almost 11lbs at that point). My first son was induced at 41 weeks 3 days and got stuck due to head position, but was able to be delivered vaginally.

I trust my doctor and I agree with her analysis of the situation, but I am a lot more disappointed than I thought I would be. I cried in the office, like a lot. While trying to process this change in plans, everyone I’ve told has tried to tell me how not to have a csection. I know they mean well, but that just isn’t helping. They don’t have all of the information and are just telling me their opinions.

I probably just need a few more days to process and cope, but right now I feel like it’s changed the whole tone of the pregnancy and instead of the labor I was anticipating and preparing for, I’m dreading surgery and all of the complications that go along with it.